What is it like to live with depression & Anxiety on a daily basis?
1 in 4 people in the UK alone will experience a mental health problem each year.
Everyday is a battle! Sometimes it’s so bad it’s like I’m living in hell.
Can you imagine waking up everyday knowing you have another battle to face, Another day of not wanting to do anything? As simple as get out of bed or even brush your hair? Overthinking of what may or could happen when you leave your safe zone? Letting people down a the last minute, Letting your children down, The mood swings & Everything else!
I was once a happy-go-lucky girl, I made my self presentable everyday, Always had my hair styled, Loved doing my make-up or even picking clothes for the day! I used to wake up & Think I will do this, This & This today, I loved going for nice long walks with my camera & Capturing pictures of pretty scenery & Of my children! I loved taking my children to the park & Just watch them having so much fun with massive smiles on their faces & Giggles echoing as they came down the slide! Or popping to our local Supermarket to get some bits & Bobs to make something nice for dinner so we can all eat together when my hubby came in from work! The simple things in life I miss the most.
Even now just taking my son to school is a challenge, some days I will just be standing sweating like crazy & My heart racing just because the playground is filling up, Then you get the thoughts that people will be staring at you because your sweating & It makes it 10x worse! It’s easy enough for others to say oh it’s just anxiety but it’s a lot more than just that! There is so many symptoms which affect some people & DDon’t affect others! What people need to remember is we are all different! We will never all be the same & Feel the same feelings.
I first noticed I was depressed when I was 16! My child hood wasn’t great, I suffered with Alopecia when I was roughly aged 6 due to the stress at home, I still suffer with it to this day if I am stressed badly I will find bald patches! I lost my grandfather & My first baby in 2010 between February & March. Of course 2 losses within that period of time would affect me massively! So I took the plunge & Seen my GP, Sadly as most other cases I was fed medication! When I fell pregnant again I stopped it but after my son it come back with a vengeance so I was put back on them again with more medication added, I’m now 23 & Still on the medication that he gave me for sleeping & A new medication for my anxiety! I don’t think medication is the way at all, Yes it may help me but I don’t want to be on them forever! Its been 7 year now.
I really do think more needs to be invested in to mental health resources, I would try anything rather than take tablets daily! CBT therapy didn’t help either. I just want to be me again! Do I ever think I will be me again? No! Definitely not without the right help anyway! Its needs to be talked about more, More resources, More support & More research!
http://www.mind.org.uk/ Is a great website for help & Support.
If you suffer with what I do & Like many others, Please know you are not alone! My email is always open like I am sure many others is too! If we cant get the right support we need then we can try out very best to support one another, A little help is better than none!